{"id":23648,"date":"2010-06-17T13:39:33","date_gmt":"2010-06-17T13:39:33","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.korhanyilmaz.com\/?p=23648"},"modified":"2010-06-17T13:39:33","modified_gmt":"2010-06-17T13:39:33","slug":"korku","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.korhanyilmaz.com\/?p=23648","title":{"rendered":"Korku"},"content":{"rendered":"
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R\u0131dvan Akar<\/p><\/div>\n

1990 y\u0131l\u0131n\u0131n bu vakitleriydi. Bir anne yorgun, o\u011flunu ilk kez kuca\u011f\u0131na ald\u0131. \u0130\u00e7ini kaplayan sevin\u00e7 ve hi\u00e7 tatmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 o co\u015fkuyla o\u011fluna bakakald\u0131.<\/p>\n

Demek ki evlat sahibi olmak b\u00f6yle bir \u015feydi. B\u00f6yle bir duyguydu. Mutluluktu.<\/p>\n

Hastane fasl\u0131 \u00e7abuk bitti. Evlerine d\u00f6nd\u00fcler.<\/p>\n

O\u011flu i\u00e7in pek g\u00fczel bir bebek odas\u0131 haz\u0131rlam\u0131\u015flard\u0131. Biraz masrafl\u0131 olmu\u015ftu ama de\u011fmi\u015fti.<\/p>\n

O\u011fullar\u0131n\u0131 ihtimamla yata\u011f\u0131yla tan\u0131\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131lar. Lo\u011fusa \u015ferbetleri kaynat\u0131ld\u0131. Akrabalar gelip onu kucaklar\u0131na ald\u0131klar\u0131nda anne ve baba kayg\u0131yla birbirine bakt\u0131. Ya mikrop kaparsa diye o\u011fullar\u0131n\u0131 sak\u0131nd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Hele hele onu \u00f6penler vard\u0131 ki ne dense yeriydi.<\/p>\n

Anas\u0131 o\u011flunu emzirmeye, babas\u0131 mesai saatlerini iple \u00e7ekmeye ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n

Uyurken onu seyrediyorlard\u0131. O yumuk g\u00f6zler ve minik yumruklar\u0131 bakt\u0131k\u00e7a ne bor\u00e7, ne ge\u00e7im kayg\u0131s\u0131, ne de i\u015fsizlik kayg\u0131s\u0131 ya\u015f\u0131yorlard\u0131.<\/p>\n

Babas\u0131 o\u011fluna meftundu. Evdeki ya\u015fanan tek gerilim o\u011fullar\u0131n\u0131 kimi y\u0131kayaca\u011f\u0131, ya da t\u00fclbentle kurulamak varken neden havlu kullan\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131yd\u0131.<\/p>\n

He o geceler yok mu? Hani a\u011flad\u0131\u011f\u0131, hani anas\u0131n\u0131n emzirdi\u011fi, hani babas\u0131n\u0131n ayakta bekledi\u011fi o geceler..<\/p>\n

Anas\u0131 emzirirken \u00f6ylesine dikkat kesiliyordu ki boynu tutuluyordu. Babas\u0131 gaz\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131rken uyanmas\u0131n diye nefesini tutuyordu.<\/p>\n

Daha geleli saatler olmu\u015ftu ama \u015fimdiden anas\u0131n\u0131n \u201cbir tanesi\u201d, babas\u0131n\u0131n \u201cher \u015feyi\u201d oluvermi\u015fti.<\/p>\n

Ad\u0131n\u0131 dedesinin hat\u0131r\u0131na Ya\u015far koymu\u015flard\u0131.<\/p>\n

Ya\u015far mutlulu\u011fun resmiydi.<\/p>\n

Ya\u015far ya\u015fama sevinciydi.<\/p>\n

Geceler uzam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Kimi zaman gaz sanc\u0131lar\u0131 tuttu\u011funda ana ve babas\u0131 kalk\u0131yor ve o uyuyuncaya kadar ba\u015fucunda bekliyordu.<\/p>\n

Hele kakas\u0131n\u0131 yapamad\u0131\u011f\u0131nda babas\u0131n\u0131n elinde kulak pamu\u011fu zeytinya\u011f\u0131na bat\u0131r\u0131p o k\u0131l\u0131 k\u0131rk yaran operasyonlar\u0131 vard\u0131 ki anas\u0131 g\u00fclmekten konu\u015fam\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n

O geceler boyunca bir yandan o\u011fullar\u0131n\u0131 izliyor, bir yandan da televizyon seyrediyorlard\u0131.<\/p>\n

Tarih 12 Hazirand\u0131.<\/p>\n

Mardin\u2019in Ye\u015filyurt k\u00f6yl\u00fclerine d\u0131\u015fk\u0131 yediren Binba\u015f\u0131 2.5 ay hapse mahkum olmu\u015ftu.<\/p>\n

Anan\u0131n midesi buland\u0131. Sadece g\u00fcl\u00fcmseyerek, \u201co\u011flumun olsa acaba\u201d diye babas\u0131na bakt\u0131. Babas\u0131 da g\u00fcl\u00fcmsedi. Haberi unuttular.<\/p>\n

Tarih 16 Hazirand\u0131.<\/p>\n

Televizyonlar G\u00fcneydo\u011fu\u2019da ya\u015fanan iki \u00e7at\u0131\u015fmada bir aste\u011fmen ve 6 erin \u015fehit oldu\u011fu haberini veriyordu.<\/p>\n

Evlere d\u00fc\u015fen ate\u015fin ac\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 y\u00fcreklerinde hissettiler.<\/p>\n

Bir anan\u0131n o derinlerden gelen \u201co\u011f\u011f\u011fluummmmmmmmm\u201d deyi\u015fine i\u00e7lendiler.<\/p>\n

Baba hemen kanal\u0131 de\u011fi\u015ftirdi. O\u011flunun do\u011fmas\u0131ndan bu yana i\u00e7 burkan, hele hele i\u015fin i\u00e7inde evlatlar\u0131n oldu\u011fu haberleri izleyemez hale gelmi\u015fti.<\/p>\n

Anas\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6zlerindeki iki damla ya\u015f\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc. Havay\u0131 da\u011f\u0131tmak i\u00e7in \u201co\u011flan\u0131n alt\u0131na bakt\u0131n m\u0131\u201d dedi. Anas\u0131 hem o\u011flunun bezini a\u00e7t\u0131 hem de konu\u015fmaya ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u201cBir g\u00fcn gelecek bizimki de askere gidecek\u201d deyiverdi. Sonra korkuyla babas\u0131na bakt\u0131.<\/p>\n

Baban\u0131n i\u00e7i \u00fcrperdi. \u201cAmaaaan o zamana kadar bu i\u015fi \u00e7\u00f6zerler, daha 20 y\u0131l var. Senin de akl\u0131na neler geliyor\u201d diye dalgas\u0131n\u0131 ge\u00e7ti.<\/p>\n

Aradan 20 y\u0131l ge\u00e7ti.<\/p>\n

Bir g\u00fcn kap\u0131 \u00e7ald\u0131.<\/p>\n

Emekli baba evdeydi. Kap\u0131y\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131.<\/p>\n

Kap\u0131da bir subay ve elinde bir zarf vard\u0131.<\/p>\n

Ya\u015far ya\u015fayamam\u0131\u015f, ya\u015fat\u0131lamam\u0131\u015f, \u015fehit olmu\u015ftu.<\/p>\n

Anas\u0131, o derinlerden gelen \u201co\u011f\u011f\u011fluummmmmmmmm\u201d\u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131 ile yere y\u0131k\u0131ld\u0131.<\/p>\n

Televizyonlardan o an\u0131 o\u011flunu emziren bir ana seyretti.<\/p>\n

Tarih 2010 y\u0131l\u0131n\u0131n haziran ay\u0131yd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Daha o\u011flunun askere gitmesine 20 y\u0131l vard\u0131.<\/p>\n

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R\u0131dvan Akar – CNN T\u00dcRK Haber M\u00fcd\u00fcr\u00fc<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

R\u0131dvan Akar<\/p>\n

1990 y\u0131l\u0131n\u0131n bu vakitleriydi. Bir anne yorgun, o\u011flunu ilk kez kuca\u011f\u0131na ald\u0131. \u0130\u00e7ini kaplayan sevin\u00e7 ve hi\u00e7 tatmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 o co\u015fkuyla o\u011fluna bakakald\u0131.<\/p>\n

Demek ki evlat sahibi olmak b\u00f6yle bir \u015feydi. B\u00f6yle bir duyguydu. Mutluluktu.<\/p>\n

Hastane fasl\u0131 \u00e7abuk bitti. Evlerine d\u00f6nd\u00fcler.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[16],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-23648","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-kose-yazilari","odd"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.korhanyilmaz.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/23648","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.korhanyilmaz.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.korhanyilmaz.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.korhanyilmaz.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.korhanyilmaz.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=23648"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/www.korhanyilmaz.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/23648\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.korhanyilmaz.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=23648"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.korhanyilmaz.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=23648"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.korhanyilmaz.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=23648"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}